Don’t Look Back In Anger I Hear You Say

Don’t Look Back In Anger I Hear You Say. Happy Monday, friends.

And so Sally can wait.
She knows it’s too late.
As we’re walking on by.
Her soul slides away.
But don’t look back in anger.
I heard you say…

Don’t Look Back In Anger I Hear You Say:

Don’t Look Back In Anger I Hear You Say:

I few days ago, I posted about my dad and that he has passed away. You can read more here if you missed it: Rest In Peace Dad, We Love You So Much. Last week is a blur. This week is a blur. Also, I’m sure next week will be a blur too. I am a big believer in trying to post happy thing’s, the yummy thing’s on the blog or fun thing’s to make people smile but sometimes life gets too real. I’m just letting you know this is why I have not been around here for a while. I am now feeling that I can hide my grief and go back to posting happier things, again. Rest In Peace Dad, We Love You So Much… 

I posted this post on my Instagram a few days ago and something very strange happened yesterday.

When I Watched This Video I Imagine Him Still Being Here:

When trying to sort thing’s out on my dads laptop, we stumbled upon two video’s. The first video makes me cry every time I hear it. I watched it 3 times and cried all the way through them. It is funny how when you watch a video or hear him singing, I imagine he is still here with us.

He always loved singing and playing his guitar. I posted this on my Facebook page here if you would like to listen – Newton: sometimes when we touch.

Then the second video was my dad doing karaoke singing don’t look back in anger by Oasis. Which was such a coincidence that I had already posted about not looking back in angry.

If you missed my Instagram post, here it is:

Don’t Look Back In Anger I Hear You Say:

Don’t Look Back In Anger I Hear You Say:

I know they say don’t look back in anger but sometimes its hard not too.
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3 days before my dad died he was told by the ambulance drivers he was ok and didn’t need hospital treatment.
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I remember my dad phoning me up all pleased that he was going to be ok and nothing seriously wrong with him.
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A few days later all of his major organs had closed down due to Covid and died.
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So how come he was ok one day and died a few days later??
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Because he wasn’t ok. He would never have asked for help if he was ok. He would never have died if he was ok.
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I will always be wondering now if he got help that day, when he asked for help would he still be here or would it still have been too late?
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Some question we will never get the answers for..
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Don’t Look Back In Anger I Hear You Say…

Don’t Look Back In Anger I Hear You Say
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16 Comments

  1. 6 February 2021 / 20:52

    Oh Claire, sending you so much love. I’ve kept you and your family in my thoughts, it must have been such an awful time for you all.
    Always here if you need to talk. xxx

  2. Heather
    2 February 2021 / 15:12

    I’m so sorry Claire, that must have been horrific for you and your family. Grief is so painful but yet is a part of life. It’s so sad. Sending you hugs and loving vibes. It is hard not to be angry. I definitely felt that way after my dad died suddenly from a stroke.

    • 9 February 2021 / 10:41

      Thank you, Heather. So sorry to hear about you loss too 🙁 xx

  3. 2 February 2021 / 02:49

    It is so frustrating when you have such horrible memories on top of losing someone you love. I think the reason your Dad’s song is so important is that those memories over time can distort the wonderful, beautiful memories we have of our loved ones.

    I can’t speak for you but lately I’ve been trying to cull some of the negative memories in order to retain the positive, loving, healthy memories that seemed to being lost as the negative stuff takes up more room and I found myself losing touch with the beautiful stuff I wanted to hold on to from loved ones who were gone and I wasn’t gong to ever have the chance to build replacement memories. Lately I’ve been forcing myself not to dwell on the negative and remember and hold on to something beautiful about the loved one I wish to remember.

    Your loss is fresh and it takes time to heal and let go of the anger and the hurt. I just mention this as something to think on as you walk this path to healing.

    • 9 February 2021 / 10:40

      Yes, I am now focusing on all the good things. It is just so hard losing someone you love. Thank you for comment x

  4. Catherine Lanser
    2 February 2021 / 00:09

    I’m so sorry. Sending you comfort in whatever way you can find it.

    #MMBC

  5. 1 February 2021 / 21:35

    Sending love and hugs.
    Covid is such a cruel and shocking virus.
    I am so sorry x

  6. 1 February 2021 / 16:50

    This is terrible news Claire. I hope you are going to put in a complaint. This shouldn’t have happened xx

    • 9 February 2021 / 10:38

      Nothing we can really do, Laurie 🙁 xx

  7. 1 February 2021 / 14:08

    It broke my heart reading this post. I had the same thing happen to my mum 16 years ago. On the Wednesday she was told she had a gastro thing and just needed to make sure she drank loads of water. All her organs shut down on the Saturday and she was gone. All I can tell you is that your dad will always be with you and the gap will always be there, but you do eventually learn to move on. You can message me if you ever need to “talk” x #MMBC

    • 9 February 2021 / 10:38

      Oh no, Lisa. I am so sorry to hear this 🙁 It is such a shock losing him this quickly 🙁 xx

  8. 1 February 2021 / 13:12

    You will never know but but the question will always be there. #MMBC